I think I will miss Larry

After Sept 2008, I think I will miss Larry very much.
Because?
There will be no one to fetch me from Glasgow airport when I want to visit Nickie! WAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nickie is going to become Doctor Nickie!!!!

My congrats to Nickie..
In 3 years, she will become Doctor Cheng. Yay! haha! .
Then.. I shall go back to Sugarland with the Chubby Hubby and take scottish graduation pics... think it will look great.. haha.. thank god I bought my gown!!
-evil laughter-

It was a terrible week

This past week was a terrible week.

Firstly, I had a difficult delivery of my precious twins (read: my 2 mailers). I spent many many hours with the gynae and nurses (read: production agency and agents) and finally after many prolonged hours of labour, finally my twins were born.

Then, the doctor (read: publishing house) discovered that there was something mortally wrong with both my twins (read: huge huge gigantic errors) and needed immediate surgery (read: error correction).

To me.. I wished only for a clean death at that point in time. And to top things off, my husband (read: the little boss) was so angry that nothing could be said... I totally felt like a fool.... It was like people around you kept telling you that you must take care of the babies.. don't do stupid things, make sure they are healthy.. and there I was going "yes, I know" and then blaming yourself when your babies are born with a hole in their hearts.

Yes, it's that bad... My little boss wasn't kidding when she said, "this is your baby, take it and own it!"

People around me were rather nice about it. I got phonecalls, all kinds of help, hugs etc.. but still, the pain was mine and mine alone to bear. Because honestly, there is no one else to blame but myself when my babies were discovered to be in mortal danger, simply because I was careless.

Stayed back at work until 12 midnight that day to solve the whole issue. And when it was finally solved, I thought "yay! it's over and done with!!!" and then turns out it was not.. For this, I shall not elaborate.. sensitive issue..

Sigh.. all's well that ends well so people would tell you... Yes it is finally over... but then.. sob sob.. I live forever with the pain that I am the sole person to blame for the misfortune of my twins. I can hardly bear it knowing that I caused them to be handicapped singlehandedly then they could be perfect.

No doubt, when there is an error, it is never 100% the fault of a single person. It is really easy to push the blame around, but it will always take 2 hands to clap.. Why? Because even if one person is careless, if the other was stringent in checking, then the errors would be discovered long ago.. But then, life is like that.. sometimes we get too trusting of others, so when the person you trust betrays that trust, you'd wish you had checked harder.

Little boss tells me that she can hardly go to sleep once she discovers an error... I know she wonders how I manage to even blink over this. But as I have said, this error is mine and mine alone.. I don't blame anyone but myself..

Empress Xiao Zhuang once said...

Haha.. 3rd blog for today...

Just decided that I should put in a wise phrase...

Empress Xiao Zhuang once said something quite wise.... When you compare a tiger cub to a full grown wild boar... which is more at risk? Of course, it is the tiger cub.. but once the tiger cub grows up.. look at who's doing the running now?

Pathei Mathos - Through suffering, learning

This has become my motto at the Clan ...

Everything I do... I feel like I am slowly being tested in the fires of the Purgatory... You can all it a baptism of fire or you can just plainly call it suffering.. whatever it is.. it's painful and its hurts like hell... then again... my hubby always tells me.. if I enjoy it.. then it's not a job.. its a hobby...

At the very worse times, Pathei Mathos pulls me back to reality... It's a learning process, they say... the 1st 6 mths will either kill you or make you.. but once you get there... things will become easier..

From the bottom of my heart, I looove my job.. I love the scope, love the learning that I get and my big boss is great...

Anyway, looks like the Clan is undergoing some changes...

I had always assumed that functionality-wise, my Little Boss was already the one-down from Big Boss... turns out the people at the Clan have found some place to slot in another layer of supremacy...

My Little Boss was telling me (rather happily it appears), "ah yes! she's going to be my new boss. That means she's your boss as well!"

Her positivity surprises me... I wonder why she's so cheery these days... maybe struck 4D

My amazingly funny Big Boss

I am in the midst of rushing a project... the Zoo has decided to make it my baby.. hence... for now I will be in labour for a little while more before I "give birth".

Ok, maybe I am not really the woman in labour.. that would be my Eggy creative director as technically, she is carrying my child.. I think I am more the surrogate mother or maybe the gynae in the medical team..

At least, that's what my boss calls me.. Whilst working on the production of my fraternal twin projects with my creative directors, (think like 10pm on a Friday night), my big boss sent me an SMS..

Boss: "So how's the labour coming along? Are we due to delivery yet?"
Me: "Nope, we are still in labour"
Boss: I admire your threshold, you can do without epidurals! So fantastic! I look forward to the birth of our big and beautiful twin babies!"

I'm glad someone finds this pain funny... because while it did provide us at the agency with some laughter... arghhh the pain the pain....

My dear surrogate is still in the delivery room trying to get the finishing touches together before the big show-down... So.. my greatest moral support goes to her...

Really cannot thank the people at the Hatchery enough... they are really doing their very best to help and get this out.. I am very pleased with them...